(23/OCT/2014) On this day, six years ago, our beloved Guru Maharaj got a stroke. Six years have passed. I always consider the 23rd of October as a very inauspicious day, personally - the day Kali thought he won. But he didn't know about this boomerang - now it is back. Three years back, we were trying to make a documentary on Guru Maharaj's participation in Navadvipa Mandala Parikrama in this health condition. We interviewed many sannyasis, leaders, and devotees. Somehow or other, everyone uttered the same words, "Who can stop him?! He is unstoppable!" It is true. Even Kali can't stop him. Guru Maharaj has said this many times and I have heard it personally. Devotees normally say that we are fighting against maya, but Guru Maharaj (Acharya) says, "I am fighting against Kali!" And it is true. Of course, Guru Maharaj wants every one of his disciples to join in this war and plant the flag of victory in every place.

Today being Diwali, Madhava Kanta pr orgazined a big feast for all of Guru Maharaj's servants. Radhapati Gopinath pr and family prepared 28 items. We have to thank them for their love and kindness. When I went to see Guru Maharaj at 2 pm, he was chanting his Gayathri, lying on his bed. He seemed to be too tired today. It was completely silent. After a while, he finished his Gayathri chanting. Today, I and bk.Shyam were in the shift. Guru Maharaj was too tired, so I told him, "Please take some more rest and I will wake you up and feed you lunch prasadam." He didn't speak much; just two words - 15 minutes. Then he slept. I woke him up after 20 minutes and started to feed him lunch. He was extremely tired, but Guru Maharaj asked me to send an SMS to all the nurses who came to treat him in ILBS hospital, inviting them to the temple. I asked him, "Are all the meetings over? Or are there any more meetings?" He said, "Everything is over today. No afternoon session." Then I started to feed Guru Maharaj Prasadam.

One disciple was there in the room, and he showed a video message to Guru Maharaj from Mayapur devotees. The message was nothing but a loud chanting of "Gauranga!!! Gauranga!!! Gauranga!!!" Guru Maharaj just raised his hands and replied with, "Gauranga!!!" Today Bk. Shyam was my assistant and he is new. I have to make him run for all small things. As that devotee was speaking with Guru Maharaj, I started to feed Guru Maharaj slowly. He was too tired so I allowed that devotee to speak with Guru Maharaj. As the conversation was going on and on, Guru Maharaj didn't know how much he was eating. It was helpful and easier to feed him his quota of Prasadam.

During the conversation, Guru Maharaj discussed many different subject matters. Today Guru Maharaj was in a different mood. He was thinking about something and he was crying. He is always in some transcendental mood. I didn't want to disturb him. Then Guru Maharaj said, "... Srila Prabhupada said having sex only for procreation is the goal of Grihasta Ashram. It is a gradual process. So I am not saying that high standards nowadays to my disciples. I simply want them to engage in Krishna's service. All these standards will manifest automatically. So I simply ask them to chant and do some service to the Lord, read books." Guru Maharaj's voice got choked and tears started to flow. It was a heart moving moment. How much Guru is being merciful? Like this, there were some serious instructions and some jokes and he was discussing about the Yogurt shop in Penang, Malaysia "Yes, Yogurt." It was a very interesting afternoon.

After his lunch, we gave him rest, but he didn't sleep at all. He kept on chanting and he was feeling some happiness or joy. He was laughing, crying etc. Who can speculate? It is above our thoughts, must be transcendental.

He woke up after 40 mins and took a  shower. Again, I forced him to go to bed. He didn't sleep, but at least he was resting. He got up at 6 pm and asked for his evening milk and fruits. Meanwhile, Guru Maharaj remembered the Sankirtan devotees who are all performing the Vraja Mandala Parikrama, currently in Barsana. So Guru Maharaj wanted to send a message to them. I did a recording of his dictation. He spoke for 5 minutes in Bengali. He gave instructions to the disciples to avoid Vaishnava Aparadha, Dham Aparadha etc., and get the mercy of Vraja to do Gauranga Seva.

Then we all went along with Guru Maharaj to ISKCON Delhi, Sri Sri Radha Parthasarati Temple. Guru Maharaj has been hankering to see Them every day. Finally, today, he made it. In the temple, they made special arrangements for Guru Maharaj to have a peaceful Darshan. His Holiness Gopal Krishna Goswami Maharaj came personally to receive Guru Maharaj. Guru Maharaj asked us all to remove the masks as he didn't want to be a patient. Meanwhile, Gopal Krishna Maharaj came with a mask and Guru Maharaj said, "Remove it! I am not a patient any more!" Immediately, Maharaj removed the mask and Guru Maharaj hugged him. Along with Guru Maharaj, Gopal Krishna Maharaj also went through the whole Darshan and did Damodara arati. Guru Maharaj wanted to take Darshan of Srila Prabhupada so Maharaj took him. Then Guru Maharaj took charanaamrita and washed his hand. As soon as Guru Maharaj moved his from that place, a number of devotees just attacked the hand washed water and that prabhu struggled to give everyone a drop of it.

Then Guru Maharaj asked Gopal Krishna Maharaj for some salty Prasadam and Maharaj asked devotees to bring it. Meanwhile, Guru Maharaj was discussing different things with Maharaj. Then he came down from the lift and thanked the devotee Brahmacari who is taking care of construction services of ISKCON temples around Delhi city. Guru Maharaj thanked Gopal Krishna Maharaj and Maharaj thanked Guru Maharaj for coming. Like this, God-brothers were exchanging their love. Guru Maharaj met Dr. Rajeev and his wife (Dr), and said the same, "I want you also to be the doctor for the soul!" When Guru Maharaj was getting in to the car; Gopal Krishna Maharaj asked, "Who is the diver?" And he checked even a small details. Such a care. Then we came back from the temple to our residence. The whole of Delhi was full of the sounds of fire-crackers. When Guru Maharaj entered the home, he had got laddu Prasadam from temple and distributed them as Diwali sweets to all of his servants. He asked a girl who was there regarding how many rounds she is chanting? She said she was chanting six rounds. Guru Maharaj calculated and said, "Oh! You are doing 3.6 million times chanting of the holy name of Krishna!" Then he was taking his dinner and in between, he asked me to check if that girl's mother, who had promised to chant one round from Diwali, was chanting. Like this, he was unstoppable. Then he went to bed at 9:40pm as he hadn't taken his afternoon rest properly. He was too tired. (Personal Diary - Shyama Rasika Dasa)