(09/OCT/2014) - ILBS Hospital, New Delhi

Today morning I had some work to do for Sri Guru Prasanga (Tamil Magazine). Then I went to Sri Sri Radha Partha Sarati temple and took darshan and prayed for Guru Maharaj's health. Then I was waiting to go to Hospital to join in my afternoon shift. But somehow it delayed and delayed our car didn't come to pick us. We were waiting with Prasadam for the secretaries and servants. Then finally at 3pm our car came and reached hospital by 3:45pm. Guru maharaj was just getting back to his bed after his prasadam. And he was too tired. I can say extremely tired. Then we made him to lay down on the bed and no matter of time he went into deep sleep. Then from 4 till 7:30pm, he was in a deep sleep. Then we woke him up.

During that time Maha Varaha Pr told that, In the morning hours Guru Maharaj had endoscopy tests. Later when Guru Maharaj got up, Ramya Vrindavan Mathaji and Dr. Rajeev came to see Guru Maharaj with Mangala Arati Narasimha scented cotton and garland from the deities. And offered it to Guru Maharaj. Then Guru Maharaj was telling to them about his morning tests. And he said, "Due to that tests I was fasting till noon." So Guru Maharaj had his Prasadam at lunch time. So he was too tired.

Then in the evening Chief Doctor. Shiv Sankar Shrin came to see Guru Maharaj. And he said to Guru Maharaj, "Only patience always lying on bed. Swami ji! You are not a patient you should sit up. And eat nicely and do exercise." The doctor always sounds so positive. Guru Maharaj like him very much.

Then Golokeswara Govinda Pr and Madhava Kanta Pr reached with Guru Maharaj's dinner and Yashoda Damodar picture and ghee lamp. Then Guru Maharaj sat up to do Damodar arati. And the Doctors were discussing outside the door. Golokeswara pr said to Guru Maharaj that just  "we will clean you hand with water and you can do arati." But Guru Maharaj didn't listen, he wanted to do ajman, then we gave water to him on his hand and he did the ajman. And then he showed the arati. We thought we won't sing Damodarastakam; as outside some discussions going on. But Guru Maharaj started to sing the first stanza, then we continued the whoLe song. Guru Maharaj very much happy to do the arati. And we have one lamp for Guru Maharaj. So when Guru Maharaj show lamp, we usually touch him, it symbolic that we also did. So we all touched his hand, and I was holding him to be sitting straight, so I was holding his shoulder. It is really interesting (may be we can say, this one thing) here in Hospital. I don't want to see him in this Hospital. I prayer to Lord Damodar, please give him good health and release him from this Hospital, he will show lamp in your temple.

Then today also, I got the opportunity to feed dinner to Guru Maharaj. Madhava Kanta Pr cooked. And then Guru Maharaj had discussion with Ekanath Pr and Madhava Kanta Pr about his diet. Later Guru Maharaj told me, read to me Brihat Bhagavatamrita and other books everyday. I am getting more sick. From tomorrow in my shift, whenever possible. I will try to read for him. I know, as we all know, when we read scriptures Guru Maharaj will be transcendentally transcend these situations.

Then Golokeswara Govinda Pr and one local devotee Rama Keshava Pr (assisting Golokeswara pr) in night shift. And we left to ISKCON DELHI Temple. At least tomorrow I wanted to be early. But in Hospital Doctor made strict rule that, not so many in service and we all should use gloves and mask, to avoid any infections and to be very clean, while serving Guru Maharaj in Hospital. So we all stick to our shift timings.

Today Nanda Priya Mathaji told me after reading my yesterday's diary that I missed one point, then I remembered. "Yes! I missed it." And it is very, very important one. Gu r u Maharaj showed her his legs and showed the swelling of the legs and said, "This is not my sin, it is all my disciples karma...." And she reminded me this sentence. Yes! It is 200% true. He has nothing to suffer. But he took a lot to suffer. To make us happy. At least all merciful Lord given us this opportunity to do something back to our this great personality, our Guru Maharaj. By praying for his speedy recovery and doing more round for him. And offering our Karthik Month results to him. Or whatever spiritual credits possible. We can pay our first installment of our gratitude at his lotus feet.

Praying to Lord Narasimhadev, who is Bhakta-vatsala to come and save Out Beloved Guru Maharaj from this condition and give him good health to preach HIS (Krishna's) glories all around the world. (Personal Diary - Shyama Rasika Dasa)